This Momma's Gone Mad, These Dragons Really Are MONSTERS

I am a mess. These stupid dragon toys at Mikey D's have my driving all over town trying to get the red on, no the black one, no now it is the blue one. I have frequently asked myself why? I really don't have an answer. I know it is to make Caleb happy, but come on Momma. Well, I found out at the McDonald's by my house you can get on a list. They will pull out one of each of the toys in the series and call you when they are in to come get the items you want. Oh fabulous, no more driving to 4 different McDonald's in one day. Yes, I am mad. Or, I thought it was fabulous until I found out my name conveniently got misplaced, so we won't be getting the red, teal or Hiccup and Toothless dragons. I was so upset. First, I would have to relay that mommy was wrong and we will not being getting the above mentioned dragons. Second, I would now have to communicate to my 3 year old endlessly that no we are not going to McDonald's today and even if we did they do not have that dragon. Did I mention am hating the Golden Arches. They are everywhere I have constant reminders of these monsters the dag dragons. Lastly, upset that I would not be the mom delivering sweet smiles to my boy for a mere $1.89. I usually don't like to spend money on junk, but Caleb loves these things. Don't judge me I know it is crazy. I was almost in tears today, probably hormones, but I was so upset when the lady was like, "sorry, to bad we don't have your name and there is nothing I can do." I wanted to yell and say make it right, but I knew throwing a fit was not right, nor did I want to set that example for my kids. Caleb cried when one boy on the playground hit his subpar blue dragon with the extra cool Hiccup and Toothless dragon. He then proceeded to throw his blue dragon on the floor and to tell me, "throw it away, Mom I don't want it!" When I finally got to the bottom of the behavior I realized he was a very sad boy that didn't understand why we couldn't get that dragon and he could only have another blue dragon. Great teaching opportunity, but truthfully it stunk. I wanted so bad to deliver for my little guy and the toy Nazi was not going to share her toys no matter what. Okay, so here is where I think God stepped in. I know it my sound stupid, but I really believe God had my back. I was still stewing and thinking I might go let the lady have it when Caleb came and said, "I found Toothless and Hiccup." A child that had left the play area had dropped their toy in the area underneath that you can't get to because it is fenced off. Caleb assured me I could get it, "you have really long arms." I wasn't sure but I was determined and reached as far as I could and with the help of my Go Go Gadget straw I retrieved the prized black dragon. I am so thankful. I know it's crazy, but I really am. We still don't have the red dragon, so I am sure I will continue to have teachable moments of how we should be grateful for what we do have, but at least today we are smiling.


P.S. Okay, here is an update on the dragon debacle. A sweet friend of my Lucia's, dad works for the McDonald's company and so she put a call into him to get us the red and black dragons. Caleb is really excited and wants to check the mail constantly to see if they have arrived.

P.S.S. The previously mentioned McDonald's magically found our name and now magically has extra dragons in every color.
Thankful,

Equipped

I haven't been real consistent on my posting lately, because every time I think life is going to slow down we get another hit below the belt. The past week and a half Cory has been in Texas. He was down there hunting and then his Dad got put in the hospital. I did fairly well on my own for 11 days, but we are very glad to have him back. Side note, Papa is doing well and was released today from the hospital in Houston.

When you move to a new place obviously people you are sharing life with that know you well are not available. It is a little scary to feel like you are on an island. Especially, when you get one blow after the next. Cory and I historically tend to clash when stress levels get high, but surprisingly we have done really well through this time. We have had heated moments, but thankfully the Holy Spirit has been at work. When everything in me wants to take my life frustrations out on someone I have been able to practice self-control. This is really huge for me. Anger is my struggle and at it's peek is very damaging. I contribute this heart change to my time in The Word. I've been doing a wonderful study called A Heart That Dances, by Catherine Martin. It has given me a real longing for intimacy with my gracious loving heavenly Father.

I am so gratefully for the timing of all this. I know if I hadn't been spending time growing in my knowledge of God I would not have been equipped to handle a difficult situation we encountered with a wonderful couple we recently met. Pittsburgh culturally is very different then Dallas. I love so much about this, but also better understand the need to be fully equipped to rightly handle the Word of truth. This couple has been burned by the church and quite frankly abused by some followers of Christ. My hearts desire is not to be one more couple that throws the Bible in their face. I am told in

2 timothy 2:14-16

not to wrangle about words, which is useless and leads to the ruin of the hearers. Be diligent to present yourself approved to God as a workman who does not need to be ashamed, accurately handling the word of truth. But avoid worldly and empty chatter, for it will lead to further ungodliness.

Where I am going with all this. The couple doesn't want to argue theology which I can totally appreciate. I've been in those types of conversations and often it is just that arguing and no real good comes from it as I think the above verse clearly communicates. However, there are a couple things I believe are important. We must learn from teachers who agree theologically with Scripture and stand firm on issues of the cross. All that being said I am so thankful that after I watched a Rob Bell video at our small group time I wasn't able to rest. I'd never heard of him and I knew nothing about his theological beliefs. It wasn't that anything in the video stood out as errancy, but I couldn't help but wonder the heart behind some of his teaching. I can totally appreciate that he is done with the legalism and religiosity of the church. For anyone out there living that way I would encourage you to read how Jesus felt about this as He address the Pharisees in the Bible. I think when we live Pharisaical lives it grieves the Lord. I pray in my own life God convicts me whenever I think in myself I am righteous. It is only through the blood of Christ that I have been reconciled. But just because there are churches and people out there misusing the Word of God doesn't mean we throw it out as our Authority. We learn the Word for ourselves, so when it is not accurately being taught we can know this. After doing a little research on Rob Bell I found that he may not agree theologically on core issues with Scripture. He has gained so much popularity and notoriety amongst Christians today. I was given information on Rob Bell's Theology as I tried to investigate this teacher. I would encourage you to read it so you can be informed. I listened to a few sermons and not that I am well versed in theology, but nothing stood out in his sermons as false teaching. In fact I agreed with so much that he had to say. I appreciate his heart that we need a lot more love. However, the message of the Cross and not forgetting that sin is devastating seems to be down played. Sin matters to God and someone had to pay the price. So God gave us his son, Christ for payment.

I love that this experience gave me an even greater desire to study and understand the Scriptures. This is something I have earnestly been praying for. It is always interesting to see how God answers prayers. Not always the easy way that is for sure. I am extremely thankful for the gift of discernment and that the Holy Spirit was working and wouldn't let me do what I wanted. I can say I would have much rather continued to hang out and enjoy small group time with other people as I've been pretty lonely at times up here. I am also grateful that before we left Texas God put it on my heart to meditate on

Colossians 2:8

See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of this world rather than on Christ.

I mindlessly put it on the dash of my car before we moved up here and I see now there was intention behind it that only God could foresee. I'm still feeling a little perplexed about being away from the community of believers we were surrounded by for 9 years in Dallas, but I know God has equipped me to be here and I am comforted by

John 15:5

I am the vine, you are the branches; he who abides in Me and I in him, he bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing.